striving for perfection?

Inspiration. Where does it come from? If you know where to buy it, let me know, ’cause ever since school has ended, I don’t feel  motivated to blog or to write. When I was completing my graduate coursework at the University of Baltimore, I loved to blog! I loved viewing my blog statistics countless times throughout the day. It made me feel good to see that a particular post had received numerous page views. In my downtime, I would think about potential topics I wanted to explore on my blog. During the school year, I didn’t put much pressure on myself  regarding my blog. Now, I want my blog posts to be life-altering, profound, and deep. I want my posts to sound like poetry. I want them to sound like words that are running, humming, skipping, singing, and rejoicing. During the school semester, blogging was a way for me to think about something other than school work. Now that the semester has ended, the perfectionist in me wants my blog to be in the words of JJ from Good Times, “Dynamite!” But honestly, there is no such thing as perfect writing. All writing has its imperfections…so, it’s okay if my writing doesn’t sound like poetry. It’s okay if it sounds conversational. It’s okay if my writing sounds like me. Of course, I want my blog to be well-read, but what can I say that hasn’t been said before? Although I am glad the summer is here, I do miss being in a creative environment where I am challenging myself. At the University of Baltimore, I was reading other students’ work, reading experimental writing, keeping a visual journal, and attending readings. Now, what am I doing? None of the above. But, I’m starting to slowly find a routine for myself where I can truly be an artist. I have to realize that my blog posts are like myself—imperfect. 

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  1. aloha Mary – i have to say, you write rings around me and make a great point too. being the me that i am… that seems to me to be something that has never been done before – at least my me… …so writing/creating out of that being of me, being the best me i can be… that to me seems important – and if i really become me, what i do will never have been done. before me. of course the same applies to you and everyone else on this planet…

    about the best way i know of to buy inspiration is with time. every day. doing our creating. the more of that payment i commit to my work, the more ideas, thoughts and things-i-want-to-try, seem to happen. doing my creating every day… is like most anything else i do every day, i seem to improve and sometimes i get reasonably good at it.

    it sounds to me like you are getting into that good kind of pattern that it takes to create inspired work – without the over structure that a school environment provides. there is of course this other environment that also provides some challenges, experiments, journals, experiences and so on – it’s called this world. i’m sure you know that already. occasionally tho, along with this world, i find a muse will show up. that’s when my work really feels good to be doing, to me. of course in a lot of ways i think our audience is our muse. okay there are some other muse types out there…

    cool on finding our muse along with the realization that imperfection leaves us room to grow, improve and experiment – and i hope have fun a long the way. that’s gotta be just about perfect for a life long creating endeavor, yes?

    thanks for blogging here. your blog entries are thoughtful and a pleasure to read – as well as inspirational. cool on that. aloha – Wrick

    • Thanks for your kind words, Wrick.

      You’re right. The more we practice our craft, the better we become. Art is a craft. We have to work on it daily, and there are times when our muses come and tap us on our shoulders. ~Mary

  2. absurdoldbird

    Mmm… I think that sometimes it’s good to just step away from ones expectations and go in a totally different direction… and then, very often, you’ll find that you’ll be led back again but seeing things from a different perspective.

    • aloha bird. sorry. i have difficulty with the first part of your nick when wisdom is clearly your forte. . . what i find interesting is that you’ve summed up quite well what i’ve learned to allow on my own path – that is, i find it’s better for me to go where i’m excited than to pursue something when i’ve lost the excitement about that thing. inevitably i seem to return to things that i have left in this way and the experiences i’ve gained allow me solutions and understanding so that i continue on with renewed excitement in that very thing i left and that “different perspective” you speak of becomes just the thing i needed to at least move on with what i was doing. so, yes, totally different directions are okay with me – because it all contributes to my path.

      • absurdoldbird

        Thanks Rick (I have problems with ‘wrick’, for a similar reason… or is wrick the real name and rick the nick?)
        😉

        I use ‘absurd’ because of my love of absurdity. If you click on my ‘wordages’ category in my blog, or some of my early posts, you’ll see what I mean.

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